I didn’t have any resolutions going into this year.

Why?

Well, I was inundated with the heaviness of my life.

I’ve been so stressed about finances, about love, about relationships, about family, about friends, about health – about all the uncertainties of life and how they will all play out for me.

And those who know me from MySpace probably notice that I haven’t written a faith-based piece in quite a while either.

For the same reason.

I rang in 09 peacefully – by force, but soon all the heaviness of the world pressed itself upon my shoulders yet again, and that peacefulness was completely shattered.

Even with the hustle and bustle of life, I always managed to go into a new year with goals, with some sort of “This is a new year to do ‘it’ right,” whatever IT was.

This year – nada.

Over the last two weeks, I’ve been stressed by this.  What in the world was I going to strive for?

And then a few days ago, it came to me – I’m going to strive to be better than I was the day before.

I’ve been telling myself that I must stop living in this earthly world, by earthly rules.  January 1st of WHATEVER year does not dictate when goals and resolutions can be set, when I can get myself right.

Every day that I wake up is another new year for me, another year to get “it” right, to be a better person, an effective person in the world I live in.

It’s another year to grow closer to God, to thank Him for the trials that I – and I alone – put myself in, to thank Him for loving me regardless of the stupid things I do or think, and to thank Him for giving me another new year to get “it” right.

Despite all the stress that I’m still under, I am SO incredibly blessed, and even as I sit here in my office, tears in my eyes, wondering if I’ll even HAVE a job at this uni come the fall (another stressor), I know that my Father loves me, I know that I have friends who love me, I know that I have family that loves me, I know there is one who romantically loves me, I know that I have another day, another “year” to get “it” right and get it right in ways that me and my earthly mind can’t even fathom.

I pray that you all have a prosperous day, a prosperous year to get your “IT” achieved.

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